Tuesday, May 29, 2012


To those who think that only women should wear hijab, you are mistaken , men as well are required to wear cloths that are suitable ... Hijab is not only a piece of cloths that you wear on your head , its connected with the inner hijab that we should all practice as Muslims in our everyday life... female and males !!

To those who think that Hijab alone show you the way to heaven ... you should view things with a holistic perspective as there are many things in Islam that are connected ... because of this isolated perspective we have lot of people in our society having no idea what Islam is all about !! and I am sure most of you know that in Jordan , girls wearing hijab are the majority!! yet our society is missed up !!! and no way neat 3afaf concept which is always linked to Hijab !!

only when you get the connection between your outer and inner eman ( faith) with a good intention ( neyah ) then you can work and pray to alla to guide you the the straight path !!

الى الناس الذين يعتقدون ان النساء هن المطالبات فقط بارتداء الحجاب .قد اخطؤو الظن ...حتى الرجال مطالبين بارتداء ملابس لا تلفت النظر و فيها شيء من الحشمة !!! الحجاب هو ليس فقط قطعة من القماش نرتديها على رؤوسنا , يجب ان يكون مرتبط ارتباطا عميقا مع حجابنا الداخلي الذي يتوجب علينا القيام به ذكورا و اناثا !!

الى من يعتقد ان الحجاب هو الطريق الوحيد للجنة ...عليكم النظر بطريقة اوسع و اكثر ترابطا للامور ...الاسلام دين مترابط و هناك العديد من الامور التي تحتاج الكثير من التحليل!!و لاننا دائما نحكم بطريقة ضيقة و بنظر ضعيف على الامور,نجد المعظم في دولنا الاسلامية و في مجتمعنا ينقصون الادراك الفعلي و الكامل للاسلام ! و انا على ثقة انكم تعلمون ان البنات المرتديات للحجاب يشكلن الاكثرية , مع ذلك مجتمعنا في اسوأ حال !! و على بعد تام من شيء يسمى العفاف الذي يربط بالحجاب فقط!!

فقط عندما تدرك الترابط بين جميع العناصر المكونة للاسلام , و عندما نربط بين الايمان الخارجي و الداخلي مع وجود نية صافية عندها تستطيع العمل و الدعاء الى الله ان يهدينا الى الصراط المستقيم !! الصراط الذي يؤدي ان شاء الله الى الجنة !!

Note : I believe in Hijab , its so important and an integral part of being a Muslim girl but without having a connection with your inner faith , and having it standing alone with a lot of bad manners !! this just worsen the image of Hijab !! Hijab should make you a better person and guide you to better life only if it goes alone with good manner and good understanding of it and reasons behind wearing it !!

ملاحظة : انا مؤمنة بالحجاب ايمان كلي, لانه واجب على كل فتاه مسلمة و فيه مرضاة لله سبحانه و تعالى , لكن اذا وجد دون وجود ترابط مع حجابنا و ايماننا الداخلي , ووجد دون تكامل مع اخلاقنا التي يفترض ان تتطابق مع الحجاب ...فهذا يشوه الصورة الفعلية للحجاب !! الحجاب يجب ان يصنع منك انسان افضل و يقودك الى حياة اجمل و لكن هذا فقط يتم مع فهم عميق لماهية الحجاب و ارتدائه للاسباب الصحيحة ...من اجل ارضاء الله تعالى ...ليس لارضاء البشر المحيطين بك !!

القاكم في البوست القادم ...حتى ذلك الوقت في امان الله ...سلام

Sunday, May 27, 2012


Salam Mina san ,

Recently a documentary made by the BBC was broadcasted And uploaded on YouTube.This documentary made the king himself angry and made me very upset on a personal level!

It took place in 2 centers for handicapped And children with mental problems. A young woman named "Hanan" working with the BBC as a reporter volunteered in these 2 centers to observe the real situation and to figure out how children are treated. She had a hidden camera attached to her outfit to get a clear picture of whats going on!

So, what was the reality behind the closed doors of these 2 centers ? Are children being treated with care? Does the treatment received by center workers matches their physical or mental disability?
No , they are not being treated like humans beings. Moreover, It's not even a shock to most of Jordanians. We all know that children are being abused at their homes , schools , so whats new!! Even the ministry of Social services is aware of the situation!

I am sure most of the Jordanians reading this post already saw the video of a student in fist grade being pressured and threatened to be beaten by his teacher to write number 9 !!

It's not the knowledge that people missed to get upset nor the awareness , it's the feeling that is attached with this knowledge , to see that awful treatment in a video and to actually see what is happening in details to these children...now this is new!

I was shocked to see to what extent this violence reached ... I expected emotional and physical violence but not to the extent that a child enters the center walking and leave it unable to ... This is something that I could not imagine nor understand!
Why ... Why...WHY!

The documentary showed a case of a child who entered the center having a mental problem, his father took him after finding about the mistreatment he received only to discover that his child cant walk anymore!! instead of improving his mental disability the center added another one! the father wanted to sue the center but the laws and regulations were not helpful and takes long time for investigation. More laws should be added to protect children!the current is not enough nor efficient! Another case was a child from Emirates whose father wanted him to enter a center in Jordan- as centers in Jordan are famous and known for their good quality treatment >_>- the father was shocked to see his son's body covered with burns. The center claimed that its because of an accident. however, the doctor who saw the child said its due to a chemical formula!! seriously whats wrong with workers in the center ...this is unacceptable , they are monsters!!

of course these are the extreme cases, other awful things took place as well. a child seeking attention from one of the center worker saying " I Love you " only to receive a slap on the face as an answer. another child was tied up to a chair not given food nor care.children picking up food from the ground which shows that they are not being sufficiently fed! they are dragged like dogs to the classes against their well !! whats wrong ? why ? why in Jordan ? why in an Islamic country this thing occur ? why in an Arab country this happens?

What made me even angry and upset about all of this was 2 things !! one is that these centers get almost 1000 dollar for each child a month ...this is a lot of money ...The normal excuse that people assume when they see these workers bad treatment to children is" oh maybe the salary is not good!!" but these centers get a lot of money and yet we see children fetching for food in the ground !!

Second,most of these workers are wearing full hijab ( scarf covering the head) , so you expect that these women are doing that to please alla(god). I was so upset as hijab is the most wonderful thing ever, but they just make a bad image out of it. they don't understand what Islam is all about and this is the case of many people living in Arab and Islamic countries. they don't understand true Islam. cause if they do even if they get paid one dollar a month they will prefer to die before treating children this way as they know that on judgment day these deeds and injustice to others can be a reason for making them enter hell!! In the video, a new worker just started her first day and she was saying to a child " set honey, set sweety" and the child was not setting for some reason, then her senpai (senior employee) comes in to give her an advice and proper training , she said " why are you calling him that , instead you grab him like that and kick him and then he will set ( she did that while explaining). The good thing is that these 2 centers were closed ... strict procedures are needed and more supervision of these centers should take place, not just these centers also at schools to make sure that this will not happen again !

here are the documentry ...I am sorry no English subs , will look for an eng subs for it ...but you can clearly see the mistreatment in these centers! salam (peace) see you next post !

This report made me think of life deeper ...I am studying Human Security and Communication in Japan... and this made me wanna work in the future in something that may changes peoples life,I know it may sound cheesy but I truly wanna be part of developing my country ...I wanna have a role in changing the situation we are in right now ....good treatment is something that we all deserve as human beings. In Japan I see handicapped and people mental disabilities that are able to take the train alone and go to places that are far from their homes !! To see these children in Jordan going through all that made me very sad, touched and encouraged to do something !! I will ensha alla , I will ( with the well of god ) , I will make Jordan a better place!! I Believe that change starts with yourself spreading to your community and then to the society...we can make a change!!

Thursday, May 24, 2012


وطني الأردن ...والله انو ترابك أغلى من الذهب ... بكفي شعور الحب اللي ما بلاقي على اي ارض ثانية... بحبك يا بلدي كل عام و الأردن بأحسن حال ...

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

هنا تموت الأفكار

ازرق: انا عندي فكرة و حاسس انو هاي الفكرة رح تغير وضعنا للاحسن بس بدي تعاونكم معي

احمر١: مين مفكر حالك ليكون أينشتاين و مش عارفين

احمر٢: بعدين مين قلك وضعنا مو منيح ... هينا مناكل و منشرب

احمر٣: انت جحود لنعمة الله... احمد ربك في ناس مو ...لاقية تأكل و انت بدك تغير وضعنا

احمر٤: روح نام... إحنا هيك وضعنا منيح... الحمد لله على نعمة الأمن و الأمان

ازرق: خلص انا بس كنت بدي انو أعيش حياة كريمة و أرقى لوضع أحسن ... بس قولتكم انا لحالي شو بقدر اعمل !!!!!

هنا تموت الأفكار و قاتلها اكثر من فرد واحد... التغيير يبدأ من النفس لينتشر للمحيط ثم للمجتمع

نراكم في البوست القادم ...كانت معكم رؤى

ملاحظة : هذه الصورة كانت عبارة عن بوست لصديقة لي على الفيس ! و هذا كان تعليق على البوست

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Presentation pressure!

Salam readers of my blog :)

I am stressed as my med term presentation is approaching , it's this sutarday:/ To present infront of the fuculty is challenging since each professor has his/her own prespdctive of how a presentation Should be.I have a main academic advisor who asked me to put all my fieldwork finding and a 2 co-advisors, of which one asked me to focus on the process rather than the findings and another who has a conceptual prespdctive. Of course it's good to get a lot of feedback but sometimes when feedbacks contradicts it can result in a headache to The poor researcher who finds him/her self lost on their own thoughts.

Anyway,today I spent a lovely day at home working on my presentation knowing that each step I make brings me closer to the graduation day. Always say to my self "yalla rua ganbatte, your almost there ", ensha2allah

I enjoyed a nice kabsah that I cooked, I am a great cooker Maybe I should cook more:) May Allah blessy my time

I wanna have fun and relax in my love , where else Japan Of course Jordan always in the heart but still love Japan ;)

Until next post Salam :))))