BACK TO JAPAN AGAIN but this time its different !!

Dear readers of my blog,

yes I know that I didn't write here for a long time and maybe you thought as I THOUGHT that this blog died but in fact, its still alive OvO. this blog means a lot to me , every time I feel there is something in my mind I just write it here and feel relaxed so nope its not over yet ^_^

Anyway, I am back to Japan now after staying for one month in my beloved country the one and only Jordan. I spent an amazing time with my family and friends , it was great.
during my stay in Jordan, I discovered how much lucky I am , I know my blessings and when I say " el 7amdullellah" I feel it in every instance of my body... its not just a word that I am used to say , its something that I feel every time I take my breath... al 7amdullellah.

I always asked allah after my prayers to give me a peace of my mind and alla did give me peace of mind... I am more certain now that indeed alla is the designer of my life, loves me so much and of course wiser than me so I will leave things up to god and I know that happiness will eventually come ^_^( not that I am not happy now)

I am back to Japan and I am settled in my cute home, but the feeling is different than before... how different ? you might wonder...
well, I am happier now , I feel like cooking which is something I didn't feel before , I like my apato more , I like the air , I like everything ...

SUB7AN ALLAH when you have a good mood your whole environment changes and when u truly trust alla and leave everything to him walla it differs ... your world changes! and this give me a thought that I cant stop from having ... Did I believe in alla before? I think that I always believed in alla , but a cloud covered my mind and heart during one year and made things not so clear to me ...but el 7amdullella spring came into my heart and mind and removed the vagueness away ^_^

I will ensha2alla try to make more posts maybe with spring coming I will take pictures of amazing sakura and share it with you guys^_^

until next post , fi aman alla ^_^

Ramadan ....wow ^_^

Dear readers of my blog ^_^

I am really sorry.I didn't wish you a happy Ramadan as I was going through several unexpected life changing events in my life...I was disappointed in many people...but anyway I am trying to fold some pages of my life and things that already happened and facts that cant be controlled by my side..

Back to my topic for this post which is Ramadan..

For me this Ramadan was the first time I spent away from my family and friends in Japan, and to make things even worse, I'v been through many things that made me afraid that I will not stay alive by the end of it!!

At the beginning, it was really sad and bad for me , so I decided to start going to the mosque after I finish the internship that I am doing in the summer break...
I used to go to the mosque almost everyday and met a lot of friends that I have never thought of meeting..

My new friends saved me from the situation I were in and they made up for the sadness and loneliness I felt for the past one year and a half stay in Japan..T_T

This Ramadan was amazing to me as I met new friends whome I really love and appreciate having from the bottom of my heart. It has been an eye opener for me on how Muslims in Japan live. for me I felt that Muslims are sisters and brothers when they are away from their home countries because they are minorities ,which is not the case when they are in their own countries. I really wish that Muslims everywhere will feel the same connection that I felt during my Ramadan in Japan.

The feeling that I belong to a great nation , the nation of Islam... this year I felt Ramadan more than any year before. I am grateful for that !!

At the end of this post... I want to pray that I will always be surrounded by friends who love me and may allah give me the strength to go on with my journey in achieving my dreams..

Thank god for the blessing that u have given me so far ... al hamdullella * thank god*

See ya next post ...be aman alla

Life ... Shocking to my eyes !!

Dear readers of my blog..

I didn't write here for a while, partly because I was busy in life and partly because my mood was really bad >_<, its like my emotions were riding a roller coaster, so sorry for that ...

In life we dream about certain things. These things can vary from simple to really big things that can change your life 180 degrees. it can be anything.

Once you have a dream of achieving something or obtaining something , you start imagining your life with it to the extent that you feel like maybe you will die without it.At least this is what happens to me !! OvO
And this is in my opinion where people's mistake lies...
I think that we should of course dream and dream big ...but I think that we should always remember that in life there are things that we cant control , we cant control people , we cant control our surroundings that can be represented by culture and traditions. yes we think that these things should not stop us but sometimes it stand in the way of reaching what we want T_T ...this is my friends called reality >_<

Sometimes a big dream that you thought your life cant operate without it dies but a new dream is born again and a new journey and adventures is yet to come...

I am trying to be positive, I have been negative so far and it effected my health and my emotions as well...

So instead of turning into an EMO and start cutting myself @_@ I decided to embrace life again and see the things and blessings that I already have, look at the things that I already achieved and remember the old me who whenever falls down in public laughs loud instead of crying or feeling shame...the me who smiles all the time .. the me who lives for the moment hoping that the future will be bright.

Maybe because I am a simple girl I thought that everyone will be simple and kind and share the same idea of life as me,but life is shocking to my eyes as there are people living in our society who choose to live in a bubble and don't wanna get out of it and see how life is viewed by others and how it can be simple ,sweet and complications free..

ahh anyway , don't wanna make a long post
what I wanna say minna ...smile ...embrace life ... believe in your self and love your self ...

life is shocking to my eyes but I am giving life a chance to make up for the disappointments that it has given me so far ..
so this is to u life ...lets see what u hide for me ... better be something really good >_>

until the next post ... be7fz ellah ^_^

May god rest your soul...

Dear readers of my blog..

I want to tell you something...

I discovered the day I arrived to Jordan that my grandmother died , I was shocked and I didn't expect this at all. My family hid this matter from me while I was away ( which was the best decision especially in my case).

I understand that everyone will die at the end, this will happen to all of us at some point of our lives, but I just wanted to say good bye , kiss and hug her before she was berried.

may god rest her soul, I know that she is in a better place right now, my granny suffered a lot before she passed away and I know that she is resting now.

love you teeta ( grandmother ) , you will always be in my heart forever...

allah yer7amek ... until the next post ...salam

Congratulations Arab world ...

Hi readers of my blog..

I want to congratulate the Arab world, Egypt is finally free from its dictator Hosni Mubarak who ruled Egypt for 30 years now !! 30 years of hunger ,oppression , poverty , and corruption....enough is enough...I am proud of my brothers and sisters in Egypt , yes you made me even more proud that I am an Arab..

For the first time , the people of Egypt apprised against this oppression and stayed more than 11 days in Al-taher square not giving up until the dictator go away so he did.

This is a warning for all Arab presidents out there who haven't understand the lesson yet, be aware of people's HUNGER , be aware of people's ANGER...all Arab countries should look at Tunis and Egypt , they proved that they have the well of a free life and a democratic system. There uprising will be written in the books of history, a glorious revolution that will change the present and the future to come, hopefully to the best.

I have been watching the news waiting for this moment , people was waiting more than 30 years for this , this moment , this glorious moment finally came.

This revolution against dictatorship , oppression, corrupt should not just happen in Tunis and Egypt , all Arab countries can follow and can have a free life as they have a voice that no one can shut it(not now, maybe in the past they could)...

To all the Arab world and all the people who have been watching the news waiting for this moment ...congratulations...

someday, all Arab countries will be united without borders , having the same dream , the same vision ... we will be free..


Victory...

I love this song, sang by people in Al-Tahrer square...

The moment Mubarak quite , the moment all of us were waiting for!!

until next post salam...^.^

happy new year ^-^

Hi readers of my blog ^-^

Today is the new Chinese year! and to celebrate it I will go with friends from my dorm to China town in Yokohama in which a special festival will take place. I wanted go to china and celebrate it there, but unfortunately I have no money and I am still having troubles with finding a new place @-@

My wish for the new year is to find a place to stay in after coming back to Japan, I really don't wanna become a homeless in ueno park T.T.
also I wanna be stable in my life in general...

I wonder whats your wish everyone for the new year? share it , write it here ^.^

HAPPY NEW YEAR

I am in trouble !!

Hi readers of my blog ^_^

I am in a big trouble >_< I just received an email saying that I should leave the dorm by the end of 28th of Feb T_T ( I though that I can stay until April ).

The problem is that I will go back in the summer break on 14th of Feb to Jordan , so this means that I have no time to look for an apartment WITHIN THE NEXT 2 WEEKS T.T. In other words , I will be homeless when I come back to Japan until I find another solution ...

wow I mean what a big stressful problem... I have to move out and I have to find a place to put my luggage , its really really stressful, I hope that everything will turn fine T_T

I hope that I will figure something out ... until next post .. salam